I don't get me.

Im not like many other people.
or
to me that is how i feel.
Some see me as naive or innocent.
So to be accepted I fit into that role.
Just to feel accepted.
but most of the I time hate people.
I try not to, but people fucking tick me off sometimes.
I want to say the truth, and breathe more confidently.
but I can't, I truly do not like myself. I never have, and I dont think I ever will.
It something that stemmed from a long time ago.
I never let my true feelings out, EVER. I think that is my main problem with people.
How are they supposed to know how I feel, if i don't let them in?
I always put the mask on, that I'm fine with what what's going on and that I dont care. Truth is I do care, and it does hurt me.
Im very confused, I dont know what to do, I don't even know if all that im saying is true. For me the truth is insanity, if I express myself too much I will be hurt.

Sometimes I think I am a prisoner of my own thoughts.

This actually made me cry, because I realize I don't know what I want. Probably sounds pathetic and normally i would say i dont care what you think, but i do. And i think most of the people who say they don't care, do care what others think of them.